And the verdict is...

.... MORE WAITING!....

courtesy of google images 

Can't you hear the e x c i t e m e n t?! 

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Wednesday, July 16th

So Wednesday afternoon was my OB appointment. Basically, there's still a crap ton of blood in my uterus. We for sure found o n e heartbeat! The other area in question looks the same. So, the OB said it could be one of two things. Possibility one; it was a twin & stopped developing rather early (like 5 weeks). My body will absorb it eventually. Possibility two; its just blood, but since its the same exact shape & size as last week, it's probably not too likely. We are waiting until my next appointment {August 14th} to say for sure. By then, if it is a twin, and by some miracle there is a heartbeat, we will hear it {I guess its not uncommon for one twin to look behind in development in the very beginning?}. So, no definite answers there. I was told to continue to take things easy because of the bleeding. No straining or intense work outs. All my labs were fine as well as my blood pressure. And I'm down 14 lbs since before getting pregnant, which leads me to....

Thursday, July 17th

I finally had my comprehensive physical with my primary care doctor & got the results of all my blood work & 24 hour urine analysis that happened just about a month ago.

My cortisol levels were actually low. I know. I kind of was expecting it because when I started the testing, I had lost around 10 lbs for whatever reason. Nothing changed, I just started losing weight, which happens every couple months. So, I brought up the Cyclic Cushing's form of Cushing's Disease & she said its a definite possibility & it does fit with how I seem to cycle between being able to lose some weight every couple months & then having it all pile back on for no reason & then some. However, it takes even more specialized tests & the expertise of an Endocrinologist. She also wants to run more testing for metabolic issues. I was extremely open with her about my past struggles in dealing with Anorexia for basically all of my teen years. We talked about how much I weighed before I developed Anorexia, how must I lost overall & how long it took me to get there. Then we discussed the steps to my recovery, and how long it took me to gain the 25 lbs from my lowest weight of 98 lbs to the healthy weight that my therapist at the time & I set for myself. Unfortunately, that really does wreak havoc on your body long term. 

She also thinks its very strange that basically everything started to bombard me after I had my surgery for Endometriosis in September of 2007. She said that she needs to do some research about some specific tests to run next week. She examined me physically very thoroughly & made a lot of notes, and was extremely attentive to all of the verbal medical history we went through. I've seriously been so impressed with her. She has probably been the best primary care doctor that I've ever had the pleasure of seeing. 

She still has all the photo collages & symptoms & correlating timeline I made for her, which she says has been so helpful in knowing where to start digging since she's looking for zebras now instead of horses {her words lol}.

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So, there you have it. Not a lot of answers either way, but still somewhat more resolved than we previously were. Waiting is definitely the hardest part. I can most definitely feel the power of prayer. There's no way I'd be able to stay this calm & positive if it weren't for the prayers of all my family & friends, so thank you. It means more to me & Nathan than you'll ever begin to understand! 

I know... still no pictures. Hopefully tomorrow afternoon/evening I can sit down & get some ready to web viewing :)