72 Hours

My life is going to change A LOT in the next 72 hours.

1) Today at 3pm I have my follow-up OB appointment. I'll hopefully get a few things confirmed today while there....

*First & foremost, find out for certain if there's just one little bean or two!

*Check the progress of the bleeding within my uterus.

*Hear &/or see the heartbeat(s)

I'm 6.5 weeks today so we should be able to at least see the heart beating. I'm also really hoping that most if not all of the bleeding has cleared up within the past week. I'm not betting on it. I have been having a lot of cramping, but no break through bleeding which is always a good sign. Last week the OB said that it could take a couple months to clear up. 

I've just been taking it easy the past week as per the OB's advice. As far as exercise goes, I pretty much cut down cardio because of the bleeding. I've been focusing on strength training. Dumbbell exercises, prenatal yoga etc. I've been feeling pretty good about those things. I do notice more energy at least for a few hours through out the day.

Yesterday was my first time getting sick this pregnancy. Nothing too terrible. Just once. I'm feeling great today, no nausea or anything. So fingers crossed that it stays this way! I really, REALLY don't want to go 3/3 on having Hyperemesis Gravidarum the whole pregnancy. Twice was plenty; its completely crippling in every way & I honestly don't know how'd I'd be able to take care of John & Ellie if it happens this time. With Ellie, I had my mom & the rest of my family to basically take care of John while I spent my day locked in the bathroom with my head in a toilet. With John, I didn't have to take care of anyone but myself. Nathan was in Virginia for school, we had just sent all of our household goods to be shipped to Germany, I moved out of our apartment in Junction City, KS & moved in temporarily with my family in Topeka, KS. My mom again, took care of me :) So, like I said, fingers crossed, prayers said, hopeful thoughts!

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  2) Tomorrow at 2pm I have my results/follow up appointment with my primary care doctor. The test results for the Cushing's should be in! This is probably what is making me the most anxious! What happens if the results are positive? What does that mean for my pregnancy? What happens if the results are inconclusive? What happens if they're n e g a t i v e? If they're negative does that mean nothing is wrong? I just happen to have 99% of the symptoms of Cushing's Disease without actually having it? Does it mean that I may have Cyclic Cushing's Disease, which is so much harder to diagnose because the cortisol levels for unknown reasons fluctuate between normal & high? Will she order more tests? Will she dismiss me? Will she send me to an Endocrinologist who has their area of expertise in this disease? 

I have a couple pages worth of questions all typed up & ready to go based on basically any way the results could go. I know... probably overkill. But, I had to do something to put my mind to work! I don't want to go in clueless to what steps to take based on the three outcomes (positive, negative, inconclusive). I've dealt with enough over the past 8-ish years. I'm not wasting any more time getting to a diagnosis.

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Well, I guess really its just today & tomorrow. Last week my therapist suggested meeting every week for the next little while with everything that I have going on, so Friday I have my next scheduled therapy appointment haha. I'm sure I'll need to talk to someone about things regardless of what way they go. 

Sorry for the "boring" post. No pictures. I have so many I need to process still, but I've just been too overwhelmed with everything else to sit down & enjoy editing them. Maybe this weekend...