Baby #3

{post was written a few days ago}


.....timing is a funny thing.....

.....nothing is coincidence.....

.....I'm grateful for a Heavenly Father who has a greater plan for us than we had for ourselves.....

.....prayer, faith, planning & action will get us through the hard times.....

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These are the phrases that I've been telling myself repeatedly for the past 36ish hours. We were actively doing what we could to prevent a pregnancy from occurring. I absolutely did not want to be pregnant while doing an international move again. I was 25 weeks with John when we first came over to Germany, then about 35 weeks when I flew back home while Nathan deployed to Afghanistan. Then 15 weeks pregnant with Ellie, with an 8 month old in tow when we all flew back to Germany after Nathan's deployment. I didn't want the stress of house hunting for the first time, while pregnant.

  I wanted to have answers to my health before getting pregnant.

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We ETS from Germany in October. Mid-October if everything works out as it should. That puts me in the 2nd trimester of pregnancy, again.

How did this happen?

A few weeks ago our protection failed unbeknownst to us at the uh, moment. I pretty much knew right then, when we saw what happened, what was going to happen. 

When I went in for my appointment with the doctor on June 20th {just a few days after the incident}, I had originally planned to talk to her about getting back on some birth control pills since my cycles had been irregular since returning for the first time in 3 years a couple months ago.

However, since my cycles had been irregular & I had no clue if I had been ovulating when the break happened, I was given a pregnancy test instead of birth control pills. It was negative. Well, on my birthday, the 26th {6 days since my appointment}, I counted & realized it had been 38 days since my last period. I had been prone to crying over silly things, feeling super tired & had zero appetite. These are all very classic first signs for me that I'm pregnant. So, we bought a pregnancy test while we were out at the PX that evening. Sure enough, a positive sign was there 2 minutes after taking it later that same night. 

I don't know what this means if I do in fact have Cushing's Disease. I don't know if I'll still be able to get surgery. I just don't know. I don't know how having a baby outside of the military will be {cost wise}. I don't know how I'll keep my sanity day to day with 3 kids under 3 {this baby is due the end of February 2015, John turns 3 years old a month later} with a husband in college full time, working at least part-time to provide for us & completing his flight training hours too.
However, I do know that everything happens for a reason. This baby is & will be a great blessing to our family. 

yep that's right; we are NOT finding out the gender!!!
I've always wanted to do this for the 3rd if we had a boy & a girl first.
there are very few things that can truly be kept a surprise in life.
this is one!!!

Anyway, yes this is a really early announcement, I waited until my first trimester was just about up with the other two, but since I have gotten Hyperemesis Gravidarum with John & Ellie super early, I figured there was no point in keeping it secret. I'm bound to get really sick in the next little bit if this pregnancy goes like the last two.

-No, I haven't seen the OB yet. I have to wait for Tricare to approve the referral since we are seen on the German economy here for pregnancy.

-Yes, I'm feeling fine for the time being. Just tired. And stressed- soooo stressed. Maybe some nausea waves here & there {its hard to tell if its pregnancy related, I had to quit taking Ritalin since I don't want my little one to be born potentially addicted to it} & really sensitive to smells.

-Yes, we are excited... and shocked. A lot of shock still.

-Yes, we are really truly keeping the gender a surprise, so don't ask bc we won't know lol. However, we do know that the name will be Italian whether or not it's a boy or a girl. Girl names are easy, boys are not. Feel free to share ideas for boys lol.