One Step Closer

Over the weekend {Saturday} I noticed a really gross/weird looking lesion type thing on my upper left arm. I caught a glimpse of it after I showered.

nasty, right??

So, today I called the health clinic & they were able to squeeze me in at 9:20am with my doctor. She has no clue what it is, but since it's responding well to Neosporin, she doesn't think it's Cellulitis or anything of that nature. She said it looks like a very large spider bit me, which is disgusting lol. I have some antibiotic cream to put on it. Hopefully that'll clear everything up.

We also went over some of my most recent lab results. My pituitary function is very low, which suggests a pituitary tumor. It could have also been caused by pregnancy {at the time of my second labs I was about 6 weeks pregnant}. She had also been in contact with the Endocrinologist at Landstuhl & I guess the Endocrinologist is not seeing patients who aren't soldiers. However, she did give my doctor her opinions & suggestions on some tests to run. 

Since I am no longer pregnant, my doctor is going to contact the Endocrinologist again, because she has a really strong suspicion that my Endocrine problems caused my miscarriage. Talk about bittersweet.

As another fun mention, my right eye does not track properly; this is also the eye that has a droopy eye lid {I mentioned all of this in my first post about this fun little health saga of mine, back in June. Read about it HERE if you haven't & are interested}.

This eye does feel a little funny to me. I do notice the tracking, and the lack of focus. This again started very soon after all my other health issues started {2007 time frame}. Since I also suffer from migraines with ocular disturbances {blind spots, floaters etc.}, she really wants to send me for an MRI. She would prefer it be at Landstuhl, which is why she's going to contact the Endocrinologist one more time up there to see if I can get seen there. Otherwise, I'll have to go on the economy. After coming home a little while ago & filling Nathan in on what was discussed, Nathan wants to see if he can't get me ordered back to the States to be treated asap since we are leaving end of October. No sense in starting treatment here only to have it interrupted, right? We will see how this plays out...

So there's a physical health update lol. Now emotional health...

I have been doing alright emotionally with the miscarriage, but I do have my days. Reading pregnancy announcements & getting baby shower invites stings, but that's something that'll lessen as time goes on. I allow myself to feel the sting & the hurt & then I move forward. When I would bury my feelings in the very beginning, it resulted in random outbursts of tears & anger, so I've realized that it's okay to feel what I feel. I won't feel this way forever.

Anyway, we are just gearing up to get out of this country. We've been loving the fall weather & spending time together as a family & with friends. Through all of the trials we've had, specifically in the past year or two, we've received many great blessings. For me, it has become glaringly apparently that even in hard times, there are blessings. Many times, these blessings are much greater than those in times that are not laden in hardship. For that, I can be & am thankful.